art by Jamie Ridler, Jamie Ridler Studios, for Wishcasting Wednesday
So over at Jamie Ridler Studios, Jamie leads this thing called Wishcasting Wednesday. Each week, she asks a question and invites the world to play with her in responding to it for themselves. It’s this circle, of sorts. For wishcasting. and supporting one another in wishing.
I had penciled in a date with myself to participate.
And woke to Jamie’s question: What do you want to acknowledge yourself for?
Oh darn. Not that question. This is the week that I’ve been grumpy. I’ve struggled in my connecting with my partner. I’ve questioned my parenting when my four-year-old is screaming at me. This is the week I’ve been a doubtful, potty-mouthed, non-self-caring kind of gal (and apparently one who likes to hyphenate!).
So, really? Yay me? (Deep breaths. Whiny sigh.) Okay.
What I want to acknowledge myself for today is this…
- for sticking with the questions even when the answers feel so out of reach
- for listening to my gut
- for allowing myself to feel and acknowledge all that comes up, even the icky parts
- for listening to the icky parts and trusting they have knowledge to share
- for striving to be the most loving and mindful parent I can be, even when I don’t know what to do next for the screaming four year old
- for taking a walk at dusk last night when I needed a time out myself
- for being open to possibilities with colleagues and partners who are in alignment with my work’s mission
- for taking risks
- for having a vision of self-caring for advocates and changemakers the world over
- for holding space for my clients when they need a place to think, question, articulate and dream
- for stretching further into cyberspace to broaden my community of like-minds (yay twitter!)
- for practicing myself a style of living that takes into account all that I value–my loved ones, my passions, my well-being
- for always, always circling back to lovingkindness
Even during the moments (or week?) of tense not-knowing, I acknowledge that I am showing up fully. Thank you, Jamie, for the timely question. What are you ready to acknowledge yourself for today?