five

The day I gave birth to my son, Harper, I made a birthday cake.  I cleaned, I organized, I made pumpkin mousse pies for Thanksgiving visitors.  I nested.   

Fast forward 15 hours and I was home again with a newborn and a sore bottom.  The birthing classes, the conversations with my midwife, Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth, journaling exercises from Birthing From Within—nothing prepared me for the experience of birthing.  It was terrifying, exhilarating and hands-down the most powerful experience of my life.  Naked and kneeling, I moaned and grunted through labor.  And, birthed my own way into motherhood as I pushed my baby into the world.  My life would forever be different in ways unimagined by me before that moment.  

Our first days at home filled with family visitors, breastfeeding dilemmas and the constant slinging and rocking of baby Harper.  All that I had heard about newborns sleeping for the first few weeks went out the window as my child demanded to be held constantly for those first four days.  Listening to this little person, I adapted and followed his lead by nursing on demand, wearing him in my sling, and sharing a family bed. 

This child of mine continues to surprise me.  And overwhelm me with feelings so huge I sometimes don’t know how to contain them all.  What began in those first few days as demanding cries are now the adament questions of a preschooler.  This boy is a bundle of exuberance, tenacity, and sensitivity.  He is both assertive and loving.  And he is still my babe.

Harper, we love you so.  And we will be celebrating your birthday all week long!

p.s.  Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

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2 thoughts on “five

  1. Wow everyone, it’s Thanksgiving Day! I’m enjoying my extra day off, and I am planning to doing something fun that’ll probably involve a moto trip and seeing something new in Mason City I haven’t seen yet.
    You write new post at Thanksgiving?

  2. Hi Tisha, Frances here!
    I have been reading your blog and really enjoying it – happy birthday to Harper, and happy 5th anniversary of motherhood!

    Birthing from Within and Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth are two of my favorite books about childbirth (as someone who hasn’t given birth but is very into natural childbirth and midwifery)! I’ve thought about becoming a midwife, and thought that those were two of the greatest resources that I came into contact with. I’m always so excited to find out when other people have read and enjoyed books that strike me as fascinating and important!

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